If it doesn't feel right... it's probably not

If there is one thing that I love is getting dirty and working hard and making something look good or creating something outside... mainly anything involving dirt, irrigation, grass, etc.  When I first interviewed for my first landscaping job I was hired not because of my experience but because I just about couldn't sit in my seat when my previous employer told me of the job qualifications..."moving lots of heavy rock, pushing lots of dirt, throwing around lots of sod, pushing wheel barrels..."  The more he told me the more excited I got.  Little did I know that I would absolutely love it and continue on with it for years to come and even start our own business that has put us through school and support our family.

It has been an interesting past five years as we have grown and adapted to the current economy conditions and to the ever changing size of our family.  Through out all of it we have been able to maintain loyal clients (who really are just the same as family to us) and build something small that we take great pride in.  

As we approach this next year, we realized that we weren't going to be able to bum our kids off on friends all day while we went and played... worked in other's yards.  Having a baby in July kind of puts a stopper to most of that.  I have been stressing about how we were going to make it work.  I am incredibly picky with who I would  like to help us.  We have had luck getting a few people to help us out over the past few years, but our passion and work ethic doesn't usually translate through entirely.  How do you find someone that cares as much as you do, wants to work hard in all conditions, and doesn't need to get paid a ton of money?  Pretty much doesn't exist.  We've had a couple different options that we were considering as far as hiring different people, but none of them felt right and the closer the season got the more weighed down and worried I felt.  How was I going to work 8 and 9 months pregnant full time?

I sat down today and punched all the numbers and it entered my mind..."we don't have to hire anyone. We can handle it."  We have just enough work to keep James hopping and busy and I am still able to work part time to get us through the really busy beginning of summer time and it all will work out!  Immediately my anxiety left, I felt calm and confident that we could do this and it would work out all right.

The lesson learned today... Don't try to force things that don't feel right.  Keep calm and prayerful about the decisions that are needed to be made and strive to live correctly.  Things do fall into place and we will be led to make correct decisions.  I honestly believe that if we are keeping the commandments and covenants that we've made, live a charitable life and keep taking one day at a time doing the very best that we can do, we will be led to see many miracles in our lives and things will always fall into place somehow.